Ya know, the more I find out, the more I don't want to know. But then again, denial is a thing of the past - or so I'm hoping, so all I can do is find out everything. I don't know if it would be better to get it all out up front, or continue to let it all just eke out piece by piece, and deal with each piece separately - but that seems to drag out the hurt, so I don't know.