RambleGarden

A collection of my musings, angst, joys and sorrows, mostly for my own personal growth, but if anyone else can learn something, God bless.
********ON THE NIGHTSTAND(Books I'm currently reading)********
'The Gift' - Poetry by Hafiz
'Sudoku Puzzles' (I'm addicted!)

9/11/2002

Commencement for the Dead

09-10-2001
gotta get up gotta go
gotta get moving, be grooving, be
hit the clock grab a sock gotta rock
another day is coming
grumble mumble oh SHIT!

gotta get moving, get a cuppa joe
mocha no foam - you call this HOT
hit the road, time clock goads, not growing mold
car, like my temper overheating
mumble grumble SHIT! SHIT!

gaining, slowly gaining
till another days burdens gang up
and bury me beneath

and the world, bored, wanders idly by

09-11-2001
none of that natters now.

and the world, horrified, sits down.

09-11-2002
A commencement for the dead. That's what it was.
Reading the names, good names, weird names
strong names, bold, scared, belittled, overworked, underprioritized.

names.

Heroes and martyrs, that's what they called them.
But all of them? No. God no. I wish.

the ones who ran, ran, ran to immolation
never wondering why, never questioning
just get out! lemme up the stairs.
heroes.

the ones who ran, ran to despoliation
never knowing why, never asking
looking, screaming, trying to be brave.
fodder.

Fodder for a war that never existed, not then, really not now
snuffed in the name
the name
the good name, the cowardly name, the strong, belittled
underloving name of what?
vanity.

We commence the dead, reading the names.
they have power. they are us, and are not
they are more, what we could be.
what we will be.
commencement beginning
commencement ending

my name should be read when I can hear it
good name, puny name, strong name, belittled
heroic, cowardly, overworked, underprioritized,
running, screaming, running, trying.
but to what?
commencement joy
commencement sorrow

and the world, curious, wanders into another day.

9/02/2002

So when do I stop being afraid when things are going well? I know, I bitch and moan about it a lot, but that;s when disaster seems to strike at our relationship.

Of course, right now disaster is striking the damn car. Spent over a grand on it this summer to keep it running, this morning on my way to Caldwell and it over heats. Again. The only part of the cooling system I HAVEN'T replaced is the heater core, and guess what blew this morning? I'm going to have to keep it another five years just to make the repairs worth it.